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you fucked me while i bled and i buried myself inside yr chest
finding something close to happiness
and now i have ur clothes and even though my place just smells like shit
i’ll get a whiff of you and suddenly it all seems so pleasant
and i don’t know
what my hand in yours makes you feel
but i know
it rips my stomach out and smashes it through the floor
and on days like these..
i’m terrified i’ll love you more
you held your mouth on me just long enough
i couldnt hear you breathe
can’t imagine this leading to anything but anxious thoughts and dry heaving
i’m always holding onto fleeting moments
and i’m wondering
if your affection is nothing more than feigning
but i keep it all inside it slowly rots in me
until my breath reeks of all the words i never managed to speak
and on days like these..
i’m terrified ur always living in me
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You create the shadows around ur lenses with dull claws and I melt every time
I picture views from a cliff on a hood looking over lives less in your arms than mine
I'm not as tough as I seem
You don't have to stay and find the worst in me
I found a freedom that slept deeply for the last year of my life in five hours of yr advice
Time always passes so I'll cut my hair I want you to pierce through something new in me with your teeth
I could write books on those things
Writing metaphors I try to be discreet
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Wednesday
03:18
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you have to fall asleep with music playing
it keeps bells in your brain from ringing
you hold the soft notes between yr teeth
it sounds like love
it sounds like dreaming
lips on a leisurely stroll across places intestines hide
rounded plains i’d like to run my fingers inside
and if i made a list of my favorite things
you’d be somewhere between cake flavored chapstick and sticking pins in my calluses
i’m not afraid
i’m not ashamed sometimes
and if you have to leave
would you go and think of meeeeeee
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+ + +
01:23
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I miss you sometimes
But I don't need you tonight
And I don't want to fight
I need you alright
I need you alive
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Baby Dolls
03:22
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i’m afraid to go home
my voice echos off me
its fog
its everything
were you there when i was gone?
my Teddy's alone
guess i'm alone too
your room is grave now
you've stolen all the things that...
that made it beautiful
all that's left makes me sick
i’m afraid of old noise
a symphony of laughter filling out the landscape
i can’t call you like i used to
and i guess i don’t want to but...
you'll answer sometimes
this feelings a metaphor
for something..
can’t figure it out anymore
i always need more
i always end up empty
i always want more
i always end up empty
i always need more
i'm always empty
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Meat
05:20
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With Glowing blue lights in a black glittered night
I was beyond canyons the moon can't illuminate
stretch the skin on my eyes far and wide
i held close my fear of the unidentified
I would wince and seep dread
But when you broke that clock and Our mouths touched
I forgot the fear making nests in my ears
it was so damn cold I was still so alone
None of this reaches me with fondness anymore
It's 2 am
suck me into dreamland take these thoughts away from me
Your face embroidered in the meat of my brain
Take these memories
They'll never feel the same
Like yellow dear eyes lit in a charcoal twilight
I heard Three knocks or maybe four
My spine like a spring smashed by your hammer
we wandered so far and ended up where we started
I should have grabbed your hand
let the wind knock it out of me
My car swimming on dirt and earth
You held me when you wanted to
My car pulling us towards the curb
I learned how to always say goodbye from you
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buttstuff Boise, Idaho
unironically sad music made by unironically sick dudes
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